I am starting to realize that a cluttered house clutters your mind as well. I have spent the last 5 weeks gatting up early and really trying to maintain my house. It is working well. I also feel better and my kids seem better. Well more at ease that is. I just hope that I can maintain this type of kiving for awhile even when my heart gets bad. I think that if I try to get all my cleaning done by noon and then focus on school while Lane is napping that will help a lot. I burn out late in the day no matter what I do in the morning. I might as well be productive if I am going to crash our at like 3 any way. I think that fact that I'm not working is helping realive my heart prob. I don't know. I wish that I had a better grasp on this thing but, as I tell my kids, you get what you get and you don't pitch a fit. I guess I should live by that too.

So I am almost to the point where my heart is a problem. I know that I have to take it easy now but that is so hard. I have been trying to get things done that will help to make the last couple of months easier for me but I don't feel good about just sitting here either. The good news is that this time I have school. It's actually really great as far as that goes. I have really been putting also into studying and getting everything done. I have found a way to study that really works for me so far. It's very time consuming but productive. The good thing about the time consuming thing is that some of my classes use the same book and chapters in it. So that is a plus. Anyways, that's all I got for now.