Man am I getting a little burnt out. I don't really know what to do. I was doing really well and then everyone got sick. Now the house is a mess. I spent 4 hours on Shay's homework instead of the normal 1 1/2. Plus I was studying for this midterm that I had so the rest of my homework got pushed back not to mention how far it got pushed back while caring for the sickly. Oh well I'm sure that it will all come back full circle. I hope anyway. I have to trust that God knows my limits better then I do and he will not give me more than I can handle.

I am starting to realize that a cluttered house clutters your mind as well. I have spent the last 5 weeks gatting up early and really trying to maintain my house. It is working well. I also feel better and my kids seem better. Well more at ease that is. I just hope that I can maintain this type of kiving for awhile even when my heart gets bad. I think that if I try to get all my cleaning done by noon and then focus on school while Lane is napping that will help a lot. I burn out late in the day no matter what I do in the morning. I might as well be productive if I am going to crash our at like 3 any way. I think that fact that I'm not working is helping realive my heart prob. I don't know. I wish that I had a better grasp on this thing but, as I tell my kids, you get what you get and you don't pitch a fit. I guess I should live by that too.

So I am almost to the point where my heart is a problem. I know that I have to take it easy now but that is so hard. I have been trying to get things done that will help to make the last couple of months easier for me but I don't feel good about just sitting here either. The good news is that this time I have school. It's actually really great as far as that goes. I have really been putting also into studying and getting everything done. I have found a way to study that really works for me so far. It's very time consuming but productive. The good thing about the time consuming thing is that some of my classes use the same book and chapters in it. So that is a plus. Anyways, that's all I got for now.

I get to go school clothes shopping with my kids. I have never done this. Not even when I was a kid. I guess I did when I was a sophmore in high school but that was the only time. I'm really not complaining. We didn't have the money. It's just a fact. I was lucky really if I got to have more food than what they gave me at school. I'm just so happy that we can go and they can pick out clothes. Great times.

So I am starting to watch 2 extra kids. Well, this week it's actually 4 kids. I'm helping a friend out cuz they don't have a sitter this week. It's going alright I guess. I just have to wake up at 5:30 am to get the girls cuz they come at 5:45. They come and they go back to sleep. I don't really know what to do with myself after that. I can't really clean cuz that would wake them up and all. I just sit there for an hour until Matt gets up. Then I get everyone up and we start the day. I am hoping that the money from watching them will be enough to finish thier rooms. I don't know though. It should be close. I have found that I never want to do daycare full time though and I understand why people that do do daycare keep thier houses so clean. If you don't then it just gets wrecked. Anyway, that's all for now. Take care.

I love the show Gilmore Girls. I think that it's great. I try to watch it everyday. If I only had the box set then I would love being on bed rest like I think that I am going to be. It is one think that I look forward to each day. So in other words I don't really have a life. I don't let myself watch it until my kitchen is clean. That is my little reward to myself. Pointless blog yes, but entertaining, maybe.

Start of School

So I have to start school again soon. I'm a little nervous. Being prego and all. I am excited though too. It's really fun. I like it a lot. I just hope that the classes aren't all that hard this time around. I'm a little bummed that I wont be able to start my clinicals in the spring but what do you do? I'm taking nursing I, nursing skills I, advanced physiology, maternal child, and nursing roles. It seems like it would be a good semester. One that I can really sink my teeth into.